Luddie
Luddie
My beautiful baby Luddie was by my side for 13 years, the best and most beautiful years of my entire life. The day I chose to adopt him became, without question, the greatest decision I have ever made. There was no one in this world who knew me the way he did. He carried my secrets, understood my dreams, and was present through every tear, every victory, and every burst of joy.
I had never felt so special until the moment he came into my life. To him, I was everything, and in return, he gifted me the purest, most unconditional love. He made me feel seen in a way only pure souls can, as if just existing beside me was his purpose, as if loving me was as natural as breathing. I could see his soul every time I looked into his eyes, and my own heart would light up just by watching him smile. We could spend hours “talking,” imagining our future, sharing silent conversations only he and I could understand. Every time I stayed up all night doing my homework, he was always by my side. And every time I came home from work, he greeted me as if it were a celebration just because I was back. He loved food more than anything, eating was his favorite hobby. He adored chest rubs and the feeling of wind on his face as we rode through the road together. Bath time was chaos in the funniest way, and when his fur was dry, he looked just like a little cloud. He was the most spoiled one at home, yet also the kindest. Even my little bird, Blacky, would hop and play around him without fear.
How deeply I miss him! His paws no longer touch the ground, but his footprints will remain forever imprinted on my heart. They say animals come into our lives with a purpose and now, looking back, I understand. Among all the lessons he gave me, the greatest was to love as much as I can, to be brave, and to learn how to let go.
Letting him go was one of the hardest things I have ever faced. I thought I would never be able to smile again without guilt. But I'm learning to remember him through gratitude, to honor his life with courage, just as he lived his. My beloved Luddie, I may no longer see you, but I feel you in every heartbeat. There is no greater miracle or fortune than having had the privilege of loving and knowing an angel up close.
Even if I can no longer hold you, you remain in everything I feel, in every corner of my life, in every breath I take. Time may pass, but we will never be apart because I will carry you with me always. Luddito, you will always be my little baby! Thank you for all these years together, for letting me love you, for loving me, for everything!
And lastly, thank you so much, Dr. Regan 💜. Meeting you was a blessing. Though our time together was brief, your compassion, your presence, and the space you gave us to grieve helped both Marcos and me navigate the pain of losing our precious Luddie. Thank you for listening, for your words that day I met you when I had Luddie in my arms, and thanks for holding our hearts with care. I was devastated that day; I never thought I’d have to let go of the being I loved most in the world, a piece of my heart left with him, and your words gave me comfort. I never forget that. We will forever be grateful to you 💜
Cindy and Marcos
